Indeed true!

Bila tgk gambar atas ni, terus teringat dekat abah. Time sedap kepala aku landing dekat peha dia sambil tgk drama cinta buat emelda tv3 tu, dia kata, 

"One day, kalau anak abah ni kahwin, abah nak cakap dekat your husband:

 'Jangan sia-siakan anak abah ni, sebab abah tak pernah sia-siakan dia",

sambil usap dahi dan kepala aku.

sedih ! terus terasa air mata nak mencurah-curah ke ladang gandum. Tapi sebab abah tengah mengusap kepala, tahan jugak, konon big girls don't cry. Sampai agak tak boleh tahan, bangun jugak bg alasan nk g toilet nak kencing. -_-" 

JE T'AIME

UiTM Interview.

Hi, beautiful sunday morning today.

I've got an interview. so bella temankan pergi interview hari ni sbb dia UiTM-ers so, dia tahu lah fakulti tempat interview tu dekat mana. And bila dah sampai Fakulti Komunikasi dan Pengajian Media, first things to do is "Candidate Registration". So my number is "PANEL 7 NUMBER 3". Time register tu terjumpa SIFU! Kak Anis. Dia lah sifu time aku practical as Secretary dekat JKKN Selangor dulu. Happynya dapat jumpa dia. rindu :) So after register is,

First session of interview: session ni senang, just buat essay about why you interested in applying the course and what do you know about the major you choose and what you can contribute for the programme you choose in 250 words ( 30 minutes). Just simple like that. I'm applying Bach in Mass Communication, and my major is Public Relation.

Second session of interview: Walk in to interview room and meet the panel. The worst session for me. terasa nak tumbuk diri sendiri. I've tried my best to answer every single question from panel. So ia berjalan lancar dan tetiba. . . 

Panel : Did you buy or read any newspaper?

Me: Yes, I do.

Panel : What issue that you read?

Me: Current issue is about Bersih 3.0. 

Panel: Okay, go on

Me: Well, one of it is about an organizer of bersih 3.0 refuse to used stadium. 

Panel: Okay. Go on.

Me: Home minister Dato' Hishamuddin offers stadium . . . . . . bla bla bla. 

Panel : Okay, so what's your opinion about bersih 3.0? Why you're not joining them? etc etc etc.

Me : Haaa?! *muka nervous, jantung nak gugur, darah berderau*  My opinion is bla bla. *diam* And i'm not joining bersih 3.0 because as a student bla bla bla. *diam*

Demmit ! What do you expect from me? dangg! aku tak boleh delivered semua point. ttbe rasa otak stuck. Nak sebut 'With an International backlash' pon tersebut 'With an International BAKE-LACE' babi apa BAKE LACE? OMG! teruk nya pronunciation aku bila nervous. Honestly I'm not that good in speaking english. So, thats why. . . :( but i've tried my best ! 

Bersih 3.0 is on saturday and my interview on sunday 8.30PM dan berangka giliran number ke-3. So? Tak sempat beli newspaper boleh? Terlepas tgk buletin utama malam tu boleh? Celcom broadband terminate boleh? And after interview tu baru tau semalam punya perhimpunan bersih ada rusuhan after anwar shows up lah, ambiga lah, barricade lah etc etc. I'm so so so disappointed with myself. Terasa bodoh, noob semua ada. Habis menyesal tak sudah tak reti gunakan peluang yang ada. Frust gila-gila-gila ! omg !  tepuk dahi banyak kali. :'(

Well, usaha doa tawakal. Hopefully tercapai hasrat nak jd one of uitm masscommers. 

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"you'll never know, unless you try"

Hi,
So this is unexpected things happen today. There's one messages from 15888 and ask me to check sesawang UiTM for keputusan interview. So, macam biasa rajin kan jugak jari jemari di keyboard walaupun hakikatnya malas sebab dah set dalam otak, "mesti tak dapat" dan akhirnya KECEWA. But hmmm finally, taaaadaaaaaa . . . .  .

her her her. Senyum sampai telinga habaq hanggg. Walaupun just panggilan interview, aku tak tahu nak describe feeling macam mana. Macam nak nangis, macam gembira, macam takut kecewa lagi etc etc. Well, atas support member-member, pergi jugak interview ni. :) At least try. Cuba nasib kata orang. Wish me luck :)

JE T'AIME